My Last Friend Request for You, Ever

 

Hi friend,

How are you? I know it’s been a while since we last saw each other. It’s been almost a year actually. I sent you a friend request by the way. But you deleted it and that makes it clear to me that you never want to speak to me again.

What did I do wrong this time? Anyway, I guess it doesn’t matter anymore. I just want to let you know that I am grateful… that you have finally let me go. Not accepting my friend request means you either are fed up with my friendship or you just don’t want to deal with me anymore. It’s okay, I guess. Now that your door is closed I can finally move on and be happy with my life, even if it means not being your friend anymore.

We really have become strangers have we? To be honest, I still have questions since we last saw each other last year. I mean, why did you still bother to see me after all these years when I visited our hometown. Why, in those many years ago, did you give me a gift, riding a bicycle towards the airport before sending me off abroad? But why, after being friendly face to face when I visited last year, did you cut me off instantly like that? I have so many questions… but I chose to close it, to close that chapter of mine, to close that chapter…of you.

I see you so happy now. I’m happy for you too. I come in peace actually. I just want to be friends because I am in peace. I am also happy by the way. No, it’s not like I’m competing with you on who’s happier as you think I am. I am not competitive, it’s just that before I was bitter because I didn’t know my purpose in life that I wanted to prove something, to prove my worth. Now that I know things, life has been different. I’ve become different.

If you could see me now. How much I have improved. How I wanted you to be proud of me, even just as a friend…with no feelings for one another anymore. Just like that…just friends.

But if you want to stay this way, not talking to each other anymore, it’s also fine with me. I won’t bother you anymore.

Just to let you know, that was my last friend request for you. In social media, and in real life.

Take care, always.

All the best,

Denise

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