It’s been exactly a year since I’ve concluded my classes at Seneca here in Toronto. I remember at this moment last year, I was hustling so hard and getting all excited for the last stretch because I’ll be finishing college finally for 9 long years since I started university back in my home country. Some of you already know my story as to why I shifted courses, from nursing to business, so I don’t have to reiterate it again in this blog post.
So here I am, finally free from all those school projects/ tests/ presentations, but still hustling more than ever. I actually understand now why people say “Enjoy school while you can” because boy you will really miss those times when it’s just your grades and graduation you were worried about. Now, all I am thinking about is my (current non-existent) career, where life will lead me, bills bills bills, family, and future husband.
My expectations when I was in college about after graduation was so different. I was thinking maybe I would start off in a company a few months later as an administrative assistant. Or maybe even start studying to become a CHRP – Certifified Human Resource Professional. But you know, God’s plans for my life really is different. In the reality of it all, what happened was, we moved to our new house so it became a bit busy helping out my parents into making the house home-y. Then we had a vacation to the Philippines so definitely I had no time to study for the CHRP test. But after that, I had a job. I worked a lot of odd jobs in the past but this one pays well so I took a shot at it. Didn’t work out because I ended up in a hospital. So I’ve been jobless since then.
Even though I’m jobless, however, God never left my side. I realize it now. Although I may most of the time complain as to living here in Canada can make you depressed, no lie, it can. But it is really a land that can make you blessed. I have a lot of reasons as to why I prefer living in my home country, the Philippines, but God always gives me more reasons why I should stay here and live my life in the long run. The reality of it all, yes I may not be as successful right now as my peers are in the Philippines, getting promoted, being able to travel to places, having a beautiful relationship, or starting a family… but I am getting there. Living in a new country is not easy especially if you have to start from scratch. Seven years is a long time and I am still blooming. Yes, I am getting there. I may be a late bloomer, but it’s called a bloomer nonetheless.
An anonymous person asked a question in my Ask.fm account stating, “Is there anything exciting happening in your life right now?” Right now, I may not be influencing people, or helping sick people, or travelling to other places, or enjoying luxuries… but I am living one day at a time. And that is exciting for me because I don’t know what the Lord will manifest in my life. It’s been a long time coming for breakthrough and I feel it coming in my life soon enough. I sense it.
It’s all a matter of perspective. Change your perspective, you will change your thoughts, and you will have the power to change your life, with God’s grace. The grass may be greener on the other side and I am a victim of always looking at the “What ifs” and, yes you guessed it, life in the Philippines – where it’s happy and sunny always. But I try to remember that living here is more blessed because it’s where the Lord wants to use me. Sometimes I think of going back to Pinas because I want to be able to live my old life – partying, drinking and living the chill life, but we have to grow up at some point. Also, I don’t want to go back to my old ways because I’ve already surrendered it to the Lord, along with guidance by this verse by Romans 12:2 “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”
I am confident in this, that even though there are times that may be difficult living in a first world country, I will prosper in Jesus’ name. I am claiming that I will be happy and prosperous, and will stay blessed because He is with me, all the days of my life.